Something was different with you too the second time.
Even though we were only together twice I felt something with you that I had never felt before Oadies know the situation your in but please tell me I'm not crazy for thinking that and maybe you were thinking it too. I know it will never happen because of your situation but I would give everything in this world to have one more night with you.
I still think about you all the time and hell I have even had some very nice dreams about you. I would have whispered in your ear something that at the time I felt but I didn't want to scare you away but with how things turned out I wish I would have told you this Anyway, I just want you to know that you will always be in my thoughts and dreams because I will always love you. It just seemed like everything was slower and you told me that I really was a "lover" in bed.
We are friends in other places but I really wish we were still real friends. If you want to talk reply to this and tell me something only YOU would know or just get in touch with me were we are still friends.
I wanted to seekking you my heart and soul but I was scared of being hurt so I held back on what was are final time together and for that I'm eternally sorry. I didn't have the courage once we finished to do this but I wish I would have wrapped you up in my arms and cuddled with you.
I know you probably won't respond to this but I have to atleast try to get this out there before I go insane. I know things ended badly between "us" and I'm very sorry for it!